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Eulogy To Courage – A Tribute To Indigo

It’s so sad when a person chooses to be who everyone else wants him to be…. It’s even sadder when he chooses to do so thinking that nobody will accept him for the person he really is. It’s sad when he craves so much to be himself but frets at the thought of rejection. It’s sad how he metamorphoses to his true self at a person’s bed room and then to a phony ‘wanna be’ around people. It’s sad that he ditches his truest friends who know who he really is and want to help him be himself, for his fake ones who don’t have a clue and don’t really give a fuck anyway. It’s sad that he can’t help but stare at a guy in a changing room and then look around to see if his friends were watching. It’s sad that he watches straight porn just for the penises but makes it a point to check out the vaginas every now and then if a friend is around. It’s sad that he sings the words “I want to break free” when he really is afraid of doing so. It’s sad how much another person’s comfort of being genuine can eat it’s way into his head. It’s sad how another person’s courage can only discourage him more. It’s sad that he doesn’t love himself and sadder yet that he thinks his friends don’t either. It’s sad that he’s falling apart and that every pillar of his life is crumbling down. It’s sad that soon his closet isn’t going to be big enough for all his fear, bitterness and tears. It’s sad that he wants to hide himself and doesn’t want to be found even after the game is over. It’s sad that he doesn’t want to turn his fear and bitterness in to relief. It’s sad that all his friends can do is feel sorry for him. It’s sad that he tries to deny the love he gave me so many times over the years and sadder yet that I miss his touch. This one’s for you Indigo…. I miss you!

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